For as long as I can remember, I knew exactly what path I wanted my life to take. I wanted to grow up and be a wife and a mommy and a teacher. I never doubted myself. I knew that was my destiny. Period. I suppose in some ways I was lucky to know this so early because I never worried about where I was headed…I just always knew.
Well, I have been a wife…..three times! I am happy to report that I finally got that right. I am married to a man that I adore and best of all, I trust him and can be completely myself. He walked into my life when I was older and sick and not working and had four grown sons and somehow decided I was his soulmate and I will forever be grateful for that. I have never felt so loved.
I have four wonderful sons who I am so very, very proud of. They are kind and compassionate and ….well, I could go on and on. They are my favorite people! My favorite thing is seeing how they love each other now that they are grown.
I did go to college to become a teacher and got my degree. I was able to teach Kindergarten for a while which is what I envisioned growing up and I LOVED it!! But then when I got my first divorce, I took a job as a Center Director at a Day Care Center in order to be able to be with my son more often and I ended up staying in that job for many years. I went on to teach adults daycare certification courses and even did daycare in my home. So, the teacher in me still got to use her skills.
But then I got sick. Then sicker. By this time I had stopped working to raise my boys full time. Jump ahead to now, almost 15 years later and I’m still sick.
Throughout all of this time that I have been sick, I have tried and tried to think of what I could do to fill the VOID. I wanted to feel useful. I wanted/needed to bring in an income. Not knowing from day to day if I could get out of bed made working outside of home impossible, so I was constantly trying to think of what I could do from home. My dream became doing something with crafts because I loved creating. I thought perhaps ETSY, or my own website. Over the past few years, I worked on creating a blog to back that up but got discouraged by my lack of tech skills and gave up.
Recently, I tried again. This time felt different. I knew if I didn’t do it this time, I never would and that thought absolutely haunted me. Being home all the time is boring! It’s lonely! I desperately needed something! So I crafted and crafted and got a booth space to get me started. And I started working on a blog.
A few things started to happen. It became very clear, very quickly, that my crafts were very time consuming and would never truly be profitable if I factored in my time. That didn’t use to matter to me, but I wanted this to be a legit business so now it did. I was also making very few sales at my booth. I don’t think I am a very good fit there. The crafting did feel great though…..until it didn’t.
Eventually, I got wiped out and ended up in bed where I always end up when my illness flairs. But I was able to get on my computer and work on blog stuff. Before I knew it, I was working on the blog from the moment I woke up until I went to sleep. And I was loving it. I was learning tons of new things and I was meeting new people and it was EXCITING! I wasn’t bored or lonely! I was sick…but I was able to DO something that was productive! I even did an intensive 3-day Ultimate Blogging Bootcamp while I was feeling yucky and was able to camp out in my bed and keep up with the whole thing.
And then I had my AHA moment…..well, I have had several so I will list a few
- My blog will be for two types of people….chronically ill people and people who are super busy…..both need simple ideas that can be carried out quickly and with little fuss
- The blog will be the focus of my business and my crafts will just be for pleasure
- I can become a teacher again by using my blog as my classroom, teaching recipes, home decor, and crafts and, at some point, I can even teach blogging as a work-from-home option for chronically ill or anyone who needs or wants that option
And how do I know my life is on the right path?
Because it makes my heart happy. And it lines up with everything I have always wanted to do. And it is doable. And challenging. And purposeful. And works for my family. And makes me excited from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep. And provides a way for me to help others. And I can do it even when I can’t do anything else. And it makes me proud of myself. And at the end of the day….I have found peace!